I just wanted to let you know my feelings haven't changed, but you already know that.. that's what I told you before you left to Russia for a month. You didn't know what to say, and it's alright, but I wish I asked how you feel.
When I saw your face for the first time, after two years of never meeting you, and only reading your words and hearing your voice, I knew my intuition was right, I knew you're different in reality and not as harsh as you appear to be.
I was nervous.
The closer I got to our meeting place, the more scared I got.
When I finally saw your face in reality, you had a serious expression on your face, just as I thought it would be, and for a second there it made me nervous, not knowing what you think in that moment.
When we started walking and speaking, I stopped feeling nervous, and it felt so right to be with you at that moment.
I was surprised at how different you were from what I'm used to. You made me laugh so many times, and I thank you for that.
I remember how while we walked to the bus stop, there was a moment in which you looked behind you to look at me and you smiled. it made me happy.
When we got on the bus I felt a bit nervous, not knowing if I should talk, and then you gave me your earphone, and we heard music together, just like I always wanted to do with you.
After you bought the things you needed and we headed back. We sat in the bus, and this time my arm was touching yours.. very closely, and I wasn't sure how you'd react. I know how you hate any kind of physical contact, even the smallest one, and yet you haven't said anything, as if it was alright.
If there's something I won't forget is the way you kept looking at me every few seconds with a smile and turned away, doing this same action for minutes. I didn't look back at you most of the time because I enjoyed knowing you look at me this way.
I dont know how you feel and it's probably too early to tell, but I hope that the strong intuition I had of us being together someday is true, and will eventually come true.