Cancer of the soul

things change

nobody@israblog.co.il (Woebegone~) — Fri, 28 Feb 2014 20:01:00 +0200

It's been a year I think since I've posted here, I felt the need to update because since the last post i've made, which was me being depressed and crashed, everything has changed so much.I found a man who truly loves me, and he is the most amazing human being I've ever met, I know it sounds corny but after you go through many people who made you feel crashed and that there's no hope..but you finally find that person, it really does change everything.I'm saying that because on my last post from 2013, I was truly crashed, the person I loved completely vanished from my life and didn't want me in his life even tho I gave everything I could, and having him keep me waiting for two year for an answer that was negative simply destroyed every belief and future I had in mind with him, and accepting that as a reality was really hard for me, because back then I just couldn't accept it that there will ever be someone else I will ever love, but things changed, for the better.My life now, and what th

You destroyed me

nobody@israblog.co.il (Woebegone~) — Sat, 20 Apr 2013 15:12:00 +0200

It's all over now.

nobody@israblog.co.il (Woebegone~) — Fri, 19 Apr 2013 21:37:00 +0200

All that intuition, all the belief, and all the energy I've spent on trying to show how much I care, doing things I never done for anyone else and never will, all shattered, all gone, left me with a big hole in my chest. I'm done.. you're too blind to see and understand beyond things, and in a few years you will regret it..

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nobody@israblog.co.il (Woebegone~) — Tue, 26 Feb 2013 18:44:00 +0200

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nobody@israblog.co.il (Woebegone~) — Tue, 05 Feb 2013 11:45:00 +0200

18/12/2012

nobody@israblog.co.il (Woebegone~) — Fri, 21 Dec 2012 22:48:00 +0200

I just wanted to let you know my feelings haven't changed, but you already know that.. that's what I told you before you left to Russia for a month. You didn't know what to say, and it's alright, but I wish I asked how you feel.When I saw your face for the first time, after two years of never meeting you, and only reading your words and hearing your voice, I knew my intuition was right, I knew you're different in reality and not as harsh as you appear to be.I was nervous. The closer I got to our meeting place, the more scared I got.When I finally saw your face in reality, you had a serious expression on your face, just as I thought it would be, and for a second there it made me nervous, not knowing what you think in that moment.When we started walking and speaking, I stopped feeling nervous, and it felt so right to be with you at that moment.I was surprised at how different you were from what I'm used to. You made me laugh so many times, and I thank you for that.I remember how while we

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nobody@israblog.co.il (Woebegone~) — Fri, 07 Dec 2012 11:44:00 +0200

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nobody@israblog.co.il (Woebegone~) — Sun, 02 Dec 2012 23:34:00 +0200

No matter what your choice will be.. I just need you to know that I can see through these cold walls of you, and despite sometimes being filled with anger, I can see beyond your harsh words and there comes a time in life you realize sometimes the person who hurts you the most, is the one who truly cares, but in his own way.

nobody@israblog.co.il (Woebegone~) — Mon, 05 Nov 2012 00:37:00 +0200

I dont know what I was hoping for anymore but I really wanted to believe for once you'd be a decent person and not screw everything up, for once.