עולמה של שיינה
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| 5/2007
depression
a state of trance. time ceases to move. everything goes at half pace. nothing means anything. everything seems gray. no black no white. just dark dark gray. no thoughts. no breath. just emptiness. the feeling that your soul will eat away at itself. even the stupid boy screaming outside my house for no particular reason doesnt annoy me. doesnt make me wanna yell at him back. just zone out and let it fade away into dark gray nothingness.
the emptiness the world holds at this moment is mine only. everyone continues on and only i am stuck in the same place for a second too long between every movement. i dont want to move. dont want to think. just disappear. let my bady eat away at all the excess fat untill there is none left. untill i remain but a skeleton. an empty, skinny shell.
gray
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