my fears are like the rain that falling outside..

the pain is real, still in me and shows in diffrent ways..

and not all about love, the x..

its about my friends that i feel that i dont want to talk with them, and in the

other hand i need them so much but they not really there..

i want to talk with someone, and i do have people to talk but i just dont feel free to talk..

i miss things and i hate the things that i miss..

i hate the things that i dont miss cuz i should..

i hate the feeling that in me, cuz i dont need to feel them, but i dont feel otherwise..

i hate the enviroment that all around me..

i hate the army,i hate the people...

i hate me, i hate the things that i feel and dont feel about my boyfriend..

i hate that we didnt talk a week..

i hate that i didnt see him a week and i dont feel that missing part for hom like i used to..

i hate that i again, think more about the other... that need to be in the past..

i hate me.. i want to feel the rain

that will wash my pain away.my feeling away.my everything...

let me be free... free of mind.. free of thoughts..

need to take break of everything, but the mejor poblem that i cant escape from me...

need a break from myself..

i feel like i locked myself in..

like i block things, in purpores and withn't..

i hate feeling that way.. neeed to feel free..

i want to go back.. back where i used to be,..

like where i felt i have mask, like i feel normal and safe from others..

like i feel complete when i was two years ago.. no sure but maybe...

i want to feel free like then..

hate this feeling now...

cant say more...

and more is less..