שם הפיקצר: Please don't go.

שם הכותבת: אן.

פאנדום: אטלנטיס.

דירוג: PG/13.

שיפ: ג'ון/אליזבת. [אם כי מרומז ויותר לכיוון חברות].

ויתור זכויות: ל-MGM על סטארגייט, ל-Busted על השיר.

תקופה: אחרי הפרק ה"חביב" עליי, "Ghost in the Machine".

הערות: אם יתחשק לי אני אתרגם מאוחר יותר.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pDIgEGQJAiI

Losing You / Busted. 

Sitting here alone thinking it through trying to convince myself that I'm not losing you.

He was sitting in the west pier, watching the sunset. That part of the city was flooded 'till not long ago - The replicators did that when they took over the city's computers - So that was the only place where he could truly be alone. But in that moment he wished someone else would be there with him- Someone very specific.

Or can't you just forget the things i said

I was angry at the time but now i cleared my head

It was so strong, where did it all go wrong?

He hated himself that moment. He knew he shouldn't say that, but he did. And seeing that pain in her eyes... It was just too hard for him. He wanted to say that he's sorry, that he shouldn't have say that... But never got the chance to.

And now he was alone here, after destroying the friendship that meant the most for him.

So tell me why, I'm swimming against the tide

And I'm praying for a lifeline, cos I'm

Losing you

He closed his eyes for a moment and then took another beer to relax himself. He wanted her to stay, almost begged her to. But she cared more about Atlantis and the expedition, and he knew that. He wasn't hurt - after all, he did knew her for three years - but that's not what he thought about- He wanted a chance to explain, to apologize.

So tell me why, you don't care enough to try

Are you giving up this fight, I can't stand,

Won't stand, losing you

He thought it will be hard, losing her. No, he knew it's going to be hard, now that she's gone again. He's been there before - Last year, after the other Elizabeth brought them the news that their Elizabeth is... is dead. But now, at the second time, he just wasn't sure that he can make it back to his old life.

You don't have to say a word it's in your eyes

What can I do to convince you we need more time

And I know I may have made a few mistakes

He saw her, walking, almost running, in the corridors of Atlantis. She was looking for that replicator, Koracen, or whatever his name was.

"John, stay back. Let me handle this," She told him, asking him to let her go stop that thing before something happens without saying anything. Just like Elizabeth. Besides the fact that Elizabeth never needed his permission to do anything, but that wasn't the point.

"Haven't you done enough already?" He asked, doesn't really mean to hurt, but still quite cynical.

"I'm just trying to help," She really wanted him to believe her, he could actually see it.

"By what? Escaping?" He couldn't not to be upset.

She started to say something, but then that damn replicator showed up. "You may still think you're Elizabeth, but you're not," He said, and in her eyes he saw how wrong he was. She was hurt, because of something that he, of all people, said to her, and he just screwed up the relationship that meant the most for him.

But losing you is just too much for me to take.

It was so strong, where did it all go wrong?

He didn't know how the hell he managed to screw up almost everything that meant something to him. It was a miracle that he even was in Atlantis - Or actually, not just a miracle, but also Elizabeth, which was some kind of miracle for him, he supposed - but also staying there for more than four years and being the military commander of the city for all that time...

And yet, his mind returned to think about Elizabeth. She was all that he cared about that moment.

So tell me why, I'm swimming against the tide

And I'm praying for a lifeline, cos I'm

Losing you

So tell me why, you don't care enough to try

Are you giving up this fight, I can't stand,

Won't stand, losing you

Only then he understood that the bottle in his hand was empty, so he turned around to put him next to the others and to take another one from the five bottles that stood there- half of them empty now.

It was then that he saw the white glow behind him - just a glimpse of it, not any more. Only then he felt that warmth he knew from so long ago. He closed his eyes with a bitter smile. He knew he won't manage to stay alive and, well, sane, for a long time, now that she's gone.

So tell me what to say

Because I need, a chance to change

And I won't let you walk away

He wanted to stop her from going. He didn't care about the other replicators- and if she would have asked him he'd willingly tell her that. Not that she needed to ask.

She knew he did, of course. They had a special relationship, something more than just a usual friendship, from the moment they arrived to that city, and she was still Elizabeth. His Elizabeth.

She turned around to look at him, and in that one look it was like they spoke for years. It was a greater conversation than any conversation they could have in longer time - really long time - and a deeper one.

He asked her not to leave, to stay there with him. He told her he needs her - as his commander and as his friend as well. And maybe... Maybe even a little more than that.

She said she couldn't, and he knew that. He knew that she couldn't, and that that's what she was gonna say. But he also saw the pain, and even a little bit of fear, in her eyes, and he understood that she truly wanted to stay.

And yet, she left, and he didn't manage to stop her.

So tell me why, I'm swimming against the tide

And I'm praying for a lifeline, cos I'm

Losing you

So tell me why, you don't care enough to try

Are you giving up this fight, I can't stand,

Won't stand, losing you

"Hello, John," It was her voice, her beautiful voice that he loved listening to so much. Sometimes he even joined some boring meetings - That actually, he needed to be in, but who cares? - just to listen to her, to see how she's dealing with those crazy scientists.

He wanted to reply, to play along with what was probably his imagination, but found that he can't make it, can't just act like that day never happened. "What... What are you doing here?" He finally managed to ask.

"Just came to say goodbye," She replied quietly, simply, and came to sit down next to him. He handed her silently a bottle of beer, which she just opened slowly.

"Am I hallucinating?" He asked after a moment of silence.

"Maybe. I guess it's up to you," She put the bottle carefully next to her.

"What do you mean, 'up to me'?" He didn't understand. Or maybe , just maybe, he didn't want to understand.

So tell me why, I'm swimming against the tide

And I'm praying for a lifeline, cos I'm

Losing you

So tell me why, you don't care enough to try

Are you giving up this fight, I can't stand,

Won't stand, losing you

"I can't tell you that. Even if I'd tell you that I am really here, it's your choice whether to believe me or not," She replied, turning to look at him.

He turned his head to look at her and met those green eyes he loved so much, saw the face that he knew for three years, talked silently to the person that was a huge part of his family, and his life, in those three years.

"I suppose you're right," He admitted. "Then I think that although all the beer I had - And I had a lot," He added, glancing at the three empty bottles that stood behind him. She laughed. "I think I'll choose to believe that you're real... and that I didn't lose it, not yet," She smiled as he added the second part of the sentence.

"I'm glad to hear that," She said after a moment and smiled a soft smile, and he saw that she was happy and relieved to hear that he believed her.

I won't stand losing you.

"Please... Don't leave," He asked a couple of hours later, when she got up and prepared to go.

"I'm sorry, John," And she was. She truly was.

"I won't make it, you know," He tried to make it sound like he was joking or something, but the pain in his eyes and in his voice was just too real to ignore or to hope that no one will notice. Especially if it was Elizabeth.

She bit her lower lip, doesn't sure what to say. He knew she wanted to stay there with him forever, but she had to go. "John... you have to move on," She said gently eventually, lowering her eyes so he won't see what's in them. But he knew what it was even without seeing her- There were tears in her eyes, tears that she did her best to hold back.

"I can't," He admitted quietly, getting up slowly. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have say that. I just didn't know what's going on anymore, and you know how much I hate when it happens. I... I hated myself in that moment," He looked into her eyes. "Elizabeth, I need you here, with me, and you know that," He said quietly and firmly, also holding back those couple of tears that came there right out of nowhere. But after all, it made sense- she was the most important thing for you, even more than his team or the city. And he just couldn't le her go.

"John..." He saw all those emotions in her eyes, saw how hard it was for her. "Yoou know what?" She tried to smile. "You can come and join me if you'll get tired of that war or when it's over. I'll be waiting for you".

At first he wanted to say he doesn't think he can, but then changed his mind. He knew that h'll do anything to join her, even if it  means that he'll do some things that he doesn't think he's capable of doing. He nodded.

"You will wait, right?" He knew she will, he didn't need to ask that to know that. But he did.

"Of course I will, John," And with those soft words she... She was gone.

I won't stand losing you.

He stood there, on the pier, a half-full bottle of beer in his left hand, looking at the beautiful dark ocean, that his waves were crashing on the pier, and thought about Elizabeth.

John & Elizabeth Forever.

Elizabeth>:

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