Embarrassment is not the only reson for this resistance.
It's just that you work so hard to be invisible,
that you can't ruin it by seeing others.
I have to deal with these freaky weeks,
till nightmare to come.
I've never wanted NOT to be in some place in my life.
Always far away,
and always depressed,
and when she speaks about beauty and stuff.
I feel like it's too sticky.
Don't want to see 'em, don't think I'm able to deal with it.