i'm thankful to god for the worst period of time i just had recently. for the peace of mind i managed to achieve. for my own self determination and strengths i forced myself to find and create.

i'm grateful for education, for i finally found a pure field that thrills me.

perhaps it'll sound like a contradiction, but i think i may find my answers both in god and science. 

can't recall when was the last time i felt this excited about something as much as i am now, when i'm learning.

the universe is full of enigmatic riddles and i am glad for every piece i manage to put in together, like a puzzle.

education, like health, is worth every penny wasted on it, for it is not a waste, it is pure gaining. 

trying to explain why and what changed my perspective is almost impossible, but there's just something about chemistry, physics & biology that makes everything logical and fit in. suddenly i see how everything makes so much sense, how everything is truly beautiful.

it feels as if a smooth ripple washed me wholly,

left my anger, agressions and torments far behind,

it foucused my sight and slowly but clearly, i can see most of the things the way they actually are.  

i'm well aware that this road ain't gonna be easy, it'll be paved with obstacles, tears, faiures, an endless fatigue,

and i will have to work my ass off,

but as long as i'll keep on walking,

i'll be okay.

because with every day that passes, 

i'm becoming a better version of me.