Why does it hurt?!
It was my first time
to experience love w/ someone I haven't seen, I don't have the idea of
how he looks like or how good he is. When my aunt told me that one of
her students was interested of having a textmate she gave my number and
told the guy not to play games with me. She also mentioned to him that
I haven't experience love before. I was doing my practicum in Cebu and
the guy is living in Negros, my original hometown. I wasn't sure if
I'll be willing to be her textmate when my aunt called me up to say
that he already received my number. Not until he texted me and
confirmed if he texted the right person, and everything started there.
Everytime
i received text from him I'll do everything just to reply. I hate it
everytime I'm out of load, but before I used to ignore the messages I
received from my family and friends from Bacolod.Until, I realized it
was love I'm feeling for him, and I hate it. I promise myself not to
fall for someone not until I finish school. And I never expected nor
thought that I'll fall to a stranger.
He called me up
sometimes and told me how much he cares for me, how much he long to see
me and to touch me. And I believed him coz I know that he was sincere
to what he was telling me. I also told him the same way....When he said
I love you I never hesitated to tell him that I do also love him.
But
not all fairytale ends in a happy ending.....I was excited to see his
picture when he texted me that he already send it through my e-mail.
He's not cute, actually I was w/ my friends and they got all
disappointed with what they saw. But no one could change the way I feel
for him, I don't care what he looks like for as long as he loves me,
that's what really matters. I also took time to send my picture with a
card during his birthday. I prayed that he will able to accept me and
still continue whatever he feel towards me. But I was wrong, I never
expected that day he stopped texting me after he received my picture.
After
what happened, I feel so hurt and betrayed, I lose my confidence. I
felt so ugly as if no one would ever dare to love me for who I am. Why
does it hurt me? I convinced myself that I should not love him coz I
don't know him completely but evrything happens for a reason. I
realized that God wants me to experience love for the first time and be
able to overcome it alone, without my family, someone close to me. It
was not my fault why it happened. I've done my part, but I guess he's
not worth it
בבלוג זה
בכל הבלוגים
כינוי:
Your My Only Hope
