I can make it sound so easy, I can tell you exactly what to do and how. 

Explain the logic behind it so you won't have any doubt. Just tell me the problem and most of the time I'll have the solution. But that is when it's not about me, not when I'm the one who need to act.

I'm doing it when I'm talking with myself all the time, my problem is not with the analysis but with the execution.

When push comes to shove I'm freezing, and then I'm kicking myself for it.

It's so easy...just say the words you need to say and act like you should.

What is the worst thing that can happen? Failure? It's better to try and fail then not to try at all.

And here I'm again in the middle of the night, can't fall asleep and the thoughts are not running away, keeping me up and not letting go. So I'm telling myself what I need to do (again), telling myself that tomorrow I will finally do it and won't back down (again), and I know that I will fail to so do (again).

It's a vicious circle and I'm the only one who break stop it.

So maybe I'll be rejected, and it will hurt...but at least I'll know where I stand and from there it will be much easier to plan my next steps.

In other word…it's time to grow some balls and start doing and not just talking.

I need to stop thinking and start doing.

I need to put myself on the line.