Lost

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zelner1@walla.com (Temporary Peace) — Sat, 30 May 2009 00:46:00 +0200

just give me a reason why souldn't I burst in tears . the agony and pain tears my skin untill blood streams out in a torrent. the crimson liquid with its metallic smell s on the flood. in pain, I raise my head to watch the fan spining gently on itsstand above my head. I pass out on he bed nearby. after some time which seemed like seconds I wake up to the noise of a shutting door a second later I can only hear the screams of rage of the parent, angry of how I, in pain, bleed on the precious floor. "and who do yuo think will clean this?!" they say. and IIay there I lay and I bleed and I am no more.

so...

zelner1@walla.com (Temporary Peace) — Tue, 03 Feb 2009 22:13:00 +0200

I think I can feel things are getting better... But I hope it won't get worse now.... Oh well, thats life... Nothing is what it seems to be" I'm a replica, a replica. Empty shell. Inside of me I'm not myself, "I'm a replica of me

poop

zelner1@walla.com (Temporary Peace) — Sat, 10 Jan 2009 03:01:00 +0200

these are comments i wrote on this blog of some institution or association or w/e you call it...: enjoy. :I live about 5-6km from Gaza. right now I can hear all the air planes and tanks and the other equipement the military use to shoot on Hamas people.In one hand it is a reliefe to know we are not alone and that the high-ranked people decided to ack about us getting bombed with Kassam rockets,. but in the other hand, I feel sorry for the innocent people in gaza that Hamas keeps as prisoners and as human shield! I feel sorry for those people who had the missfortune to be tortured by Hamas (not given food or water and other necesary supplies) just to make us, "the Zionist Enemy" to look bad and cruel and evil.It is already 2:33am and I cant sleep.The noise the aircrafts and tanks and others make is loudly and clearly heard here. I�m not hurt, not physically, not yet, but still I can feel the deep cut inside my soul. that cut is a result of 8 years of denial, and like salt on open w

zelner1@walla.com (Temporary Peace) — Sat, 22 Nov 2008 23:56:00 +0200

Sometimes i want to forget. I want to think everything is okay. i think its normal.. ( i hope) . oh well i guess i'll come back more often.

zelner1@walla.com (Temporary Peace) — Sun, 06 Jul 2008 16:31:00 +0200

Empty vessel under the sun wipe the dustFrom my face another morning black SundayComing down againAnd coming down againEmpty vessel empty veinsEmpty bottle wish for rain that pain againWash the blood off my face the pulse fromMy brain and I feel that pain againAnd I feel my pain againI'm looking over my shoulder 'cos millions Will whisper I'm killing myself again maybe I'm dying faster but nothing ever last IRemember a night from my past when I wasStabbed in the back and its all comingBack and I feel that pain againI abhor you I condemn you 'cos this painWill never end you got away without aScratch and now you're walking on a lucky Path I have to laugh but you'd better watch your backThere's pathetic opposition they're the Cause of my condition I'll be coming back For them I've a solution for this sadSituation nothing left but to kill myself Again (Because I'm so empty) Jadgement will come... I won't be there.

zelner1@walla.com (Temporary Peace) — Wed, 16 Apr 2008 12:49:00 +0200

zelner1@walla.com (Temporary Peace) — Tue, 15 Apr 2008 20:18:00 +0200

what is it that keeps us going without stopping to think. thinking about toward where are we running in the filthy, ugly, river of life. sometimes I just feel like making it all stop. I dont know why buy I sometimes feel like Jhonny the Homicidal Maniac in JCV's comics. if everything has a reason to exist in this world, then , what is mine? I want a sword.

so un-needed

zelner1@walla.com (Temporary Peace) — Fri, 15 Feb 2008 01:20:00 +0200

Here, Alone in thoughts. Here, dying by the sword of coldest steel. Coldest night and agony. tearing my flesh, slowly eating the remaining soulthats left. all alone. So far away, I never hear the water. when the skies are darkest black, the cry of evermore. See you in another life.

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zelner1@walla.com (Temporary Peace) — Tue, 30 Oct 2007 22:48:00 +0200

あのさ・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・・市ね

.Nothing you may say will make me feel better

zelner1@walla.com (Temporary Peace) — Sat, 01 Sep 2007 12:28:00 +0200

.I feel choken .I feel behind .I feel likesomeone took my light .I feel so hollow .I feel nothing .I think this life is useless sometimes .nothing can make me feel elsehow .only your kiss on my lips can cheer me up but its useless too 'cause you dont know .what I feel about you I dont know how, I dont know why, it just feels like doomsday. ... .. leave me alone