.No More World.

sometimes I surprise myself

HorrorLandSin@hotmail.com (Seven) — Fri, 18 May 2012 07:13:00 +0200

Like, how the fuck do I still remember the username & password to this site. It's amazing. I've been kind of lonely & depressed. Like, not all sappy, crying my eyes out, depressed. But just... realizing a lot of things and it's overwhelming. I cried to my step-father a few days ago. It's so hard speaking to him sometimes. But he's really the only adult I trust with my insanity. I can spill my heart to him. It's really bizzare. Been trying to fill the loneliness with new friends. But I can't seem to click with them quite right. & I don't completely trust my good old friends, either. Really unnerving. I try to kill the awefuly negative moods with art. & perhaps I'll share some in the morning with you. Sure you'd love that. Because it's art. Who doesn't like that shit?

Happy Passover / Easter weekend

HorrorLandSin@hotmail.com (Seven) — Sun, 08 Apr 2012 05:28:00 +0200

It is spring, and thus, come the spring jolly. This obviously includes, but not limited to: -Eating matza. -Eating eggs. -Eating chocolate. -Eating lamb. -Singing about God. -Singing about Jesus. -Searching for aphicomans. -Searching for easter eggs. I've been eating everything in my sight. ~ James, my darling of almost two years, has come down to visit from upstate. He's currently taking advantage of being back in our bed. I just wanna cuddle up to him all night. Happy holidays. BOB

limit of 100 stations on Pandora

HorrorLandSin@hotmail.com (Seven) — Thu, 05 Apr 2012 06:45:00 +0200

I am so out of my own head

HorrorLandSin@hotmail.com (Seven) — Wed, 04 Apr 2012 16:35:00 +0200

It's not even okay. Half the shit that goes on around me, makes absolutely no sense to me. I'm ignoring so much. Letting so much not effect me, in any way. While I obviously should. I live in a word of fantasy in my own head, avoiding my responsibilities and issues. I don't think I ever grew out of not giving a fuck. I know what I should & shouldn't do. But fuck it. YOLO. BOB

Beethoven for your ears

HorrorLandSin@hotmail.com (Seven) — Tue, 03 Apr 2012 22:55:00 +0200

I've found comfort in classical masterpieces. Notice the energy, the waves of instruments moaning to the melody. It's fucking great. BeethovenPiano Concerto No.3 in C minorOp.37 III: Rondo, Allegro BOB

I'm starting this blog over

HorrorLandSin@hotmail.com (Seven) — Tue, 03 Apr 2012 18:20:00 +0200

I've set all of my previous posts into drafts.I'm not sure how many of you are still following along.Or will notice that I am back. But I guess this will be a new start. I'll be mostly writing in English, so bare with me. Might install Hebrew later on, but my writing and communication skills in Hebrew have fallen to horrific standards. Hi, my name is BOB, I'm a twenty-one year old Russian-Israeli, who moved to New York, USA in 2003. I'm emotionally unstable. & I usually fuck shit up. 'Cause I don't giv